With all the better mediums like facebook, twitter, instagram, which has better visibility, some wonders why am i sticking to blogging. It's simple. There are only 2 types of people who read my blog.
1. Those who are interested in knowing about what has been going on in my life.
2. Random people.
Done answering question. So, here's my thought nowadays.
Some people around me called me an optimist. Some others said i am too kind. And also some called me a weirdo. None of that right. I am just me.
When it seems too easy for me to say "i'm at fault or i'm sorry.", some said or maybe mad at me, "why are YOU sorry? How come it's so easy for you to say sorry when u're the least to blame?".
When things go wrong in our lives, it's easier to find someone/something else to blame instead of finding what went wrong in our actions or decisions. But guess what, everything that happen in our lives, depends on our own decision that leads to it. We hardly admit it. Unexpected things happen, yea, unexpectedly, but as long as we know that the most important thing is only all that matters, we'll survive. Strong belief will save us. In islam, it's called iman. Whatever it's called, it's something that we need in our heart and mind. Don't just fill ur heart with love, or hatred, and ur mind with greed or ambition, unless u want to be blinded by it. Our religion guide us well enough, not by only part of it, but by all of it. That's usually how we can stay cool at all time. Not me.,though.
For me, for all those chaos (conflicts, as described by most people), i just wanted a stop to them. That's always the case. You keep on with those 'blame games', there's no ending to it. In the end, the relationship becomes sour, and everyone start going through it just end it, or wrap everything up and start a new thing with different people.
Maybe that's why i am called a weirdo. It doesn't matter, though. By stopping them, (in my own 'weird' way), there'll be less arguments, less wasted time, and less to deal with. Smart, don't u think? Life is short to be wasted on meaningless things.
How am I doing nowadays?
Still studying and trying to be something or at least finding something that i want to do or to be but stil, nothing. I am still nothing.
My next presentation has been scheduled for this Wednesday, the Research Methodology presentation, which is supposed to be done before the proposal defense. In my case, there were changes here and there in the system, and, here i am, one of the victims of bureaucracy. It's not a big deal, though. For UNIMAS Master Degree by Research, we need to do 3 presentations and of course submit 1 dissertation of our theses, apart from the progress reports we need to submit every semester.
Chronologically, we have to attend two-days Research Methodology courses in our 1st semester, then do the RM presentation to make sure that we understand research methodology. It plays a big role in determining the quality of our researches, after all. Then, within 6 months after registration, we have to get done with our proposal defense. This will determine the significance of our research, whether it's worthy or not, in a sense of filling the gap between the previous researches. After that, get our researches done, submit our theses, and wait for viva, the big wall that we need to climb before getting our degree.
The only thing I can comment about the journey, 'I'm doing my best, as always.'