Year-End Rant: My 2017

My 2017.

2017 has been a really tiring yet rewarding year.

Career. I changed job, still not a permanent one. I met many kind of people, mostly academicians and researchers, and they are all inspiring. Advising me to pursue academic/ research, but I just can't see myself as one in the future. Completed my own research activities and started with journal articles and thesis writing. As if. 😂 Yea, I did completed it in fact, but somehow, as I wrote my thesis, I found out that there is something wrong/ lack in my research. So, I've decided to improve and recollect the data. However, I am not going to waste my previous data. I am still working on the papers I planned to produce with the data. Research is fun, without restriction, with freedom. I went to many underserved villages and learn so much. Suffer as much. 😂 Even so, it motivates me to give. Through knowledge.


Time flies. Love fades.

Love. The fact that he's still the only one i have ever loved is wonderful. Blame my stubborn heart. All the moments we spent together, and every little words he ever said sticks in my mind, thus, i didn't realize that time flies. Love is space and time measured by the heart. But for us, it was unmeasurable, coz i was the only one with space in my heart for him. I am. There has yet the second. Seeing him still change my heart rythm. Keep being like this, and it'll become a habit. In fact, it already is. Loving him. Since when did our path become so parallel that it seems like it'll never cross each other. More than a decade passed, and I am still filled with both love and hesitation.

Izinkan aku memetik kata-kata ini untuk yang kedua kalinya: (tahun ni kurang baca buku, banyak baca journal article je, so, xde quotation baru...haha)

“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Devil and Miss Prym.  

“Happiness is not the absence of problems; it's the ability to deal with them.”
― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free.

2017. Tried to be as positive as i can, everyday. Always. And will keep on doing so. And this year, i'm healthier than the year before. Spent less time with family, thus often get homeSICK. 😁 Gain weight, BMI still ideal. Experienced the worst sunburn in my life, as well. That was very bad. Ruined my skin, but I care less about it than about getting a real job. But somehow, 2017 was satisfying in overall. I am going to work harder to find a real stable job. Wish me all the best, everyone!

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Hari ini
Kau berfikir kenapa kau kerja separuh mati
Berjaga sehingga dinihari
Tapi tidak dihargai
Yang dapat hanya caci maki

Completed study, waaa i'm happy
Now i'm an adult, so, i'm free
Those feeling remains in your memory
U feel like life is cruel? Yea it can be...

Kau dah berkerja tetap, mengeluh setiap hari
Padahal di luar sana ramai yang masih mencari
Awal dapat kerja dulu bukan ka kau dah janji?
Nak kerja elok2 nak bangunkan diri

This is not a grievance, not even slightly
Just a reminder on how to be happy
Life shouldn't be full of dissatisfaction, but with positivity
Yea, we know each individual differs in their personality
But optimism drives you forward, don't you agree?

Kau ingat boleh jadi optimis hari ini lepas berdoa malam tadi?
Kau ingat fikiran positif itu ada dijual beli?
Tidak, pemikiran ni kita bentuk sendiri, dengan mendidik hati
Yea, tak usah cari sana sini, dah ada dalam diri
INSYAALAH mudah jika disirami dengan percaya pada Ilahi.


*Yes, i compiled my fb posts. 😂


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Dunia akhir zaman

Umatnya

Terjerat dalam perangkap materialism
Hanyut melayari bahtera kekayaan yang mempesona
Terperangkap dalam sangkar hedonism
Lantas kecundang dalam penipuan dunia.


It's a wrap! So, the end of my 2017 was well spent with both friends and relatives.

Photo credit: Everyone else. 😂

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2018's resolution?

To do my best in everything and live my life to the fullest.